I’ve been
known as
reserved
quiet
reticent.
They would
hardly
recognize me,
now that you’ve
turned me
into a thing
that howls.
Faith, Health, and Other Musings
May our minds flourish with creation, and may our hands never deny its expression.
I’ve been
known as
reserved
quiet
reticent.
They would
hardly
recognize me,
now that you’ve
turned me
into a thing
that howls.
I cling to life
with white knuckles,
because it’s the only
thing I’ve ever known.
But, is that a good reason
to cling to something,
because it’s the only thing
you’ve ever known?
“What do you have to offer me?” she asked.
Nervously, I answer:
“I function within an economy
of words,
and I can offer you
a library
of books
written about the way
you look tonight.”
I’ve been a lot of things:
eager
reserved
euphoric
morose
confused
and
incorrigible,
but, today,
I am only
thankful
to have you.
Dizzy,
I run my fingers through your hair,
thinking that
you press
further through me
with every stroke.
I think
I am playing with your hair,
but it is me,
me,
who is being played with.
I have mourned you
for as long
as I have loved you;
for, from the moment
you became my heart,
I knew that,
someday,
my chest would
never be
that full again.
(What will I do with my eyes when they can’t look at you?)
During those moments
of fleeting humanity,
I reject painful sacrifice,
but then I recall the truth:
it is my highest honor
to do something,
for my God,
that hurts.
Consumed by deadlines.
Buried in unmet dreams.
Burdened by rejections
that press me farther downstream.
From beneath the water,
I greet the stones with a grin,
for it takes water in your ears,
to hear the voice within.
The Whisperer makes to speak,
and tells the wearied me,
that the things for which I labor
hold not my identity.
The essence, the potentialities,
the soul, and the heart,
your daily triumphs and your failures
hold not even part.
Can you beleive
how they mock me
for the way that I speak?
“Logan uses big words now.”
There’s nothing so
beautifully individual
as one’s pattern of speech,
the path to self-expression,
the words that hang on your lips,
whispering to the listener
the secrets about who you are
and where you’ve been.
It’s ok if I’m sad,
but weird if I’m morose or sullen.
It’s normal if I’m happy
but too much if I’m euphoric.
I won’t reduce my language
just so that you like the sound if it.
(I don’t, and would not, hurl insults at another’s self-expression, and I won’t carry shame — or ignominy, if you don’t mind — for mine.)
I looked around
the gymnasium,
thinking that, perhaps,
I had nothing
— an entire absence
of thoughts —
in common
with the humans around me.
I determined to find a
thread common
among us.
Finally, I posited to myself,
“well, everyone here
must foster
an identical faith,
a faith that says
the ceiling
of the gymnasium
won’t collapse
onto the floor
tonight.”